Dear Judy
Sister, how are you?
I woke up this morning. It's nearly Easter. Whenever it is Easter, I think of you. I'll never forget seeing you for the first time when you were born. You were the sweetest little baby wrapped in a soft white blanket. How I loved kissing and holding you! I was a teenager and loved carrying you around. Sometimes people asked if you were my baby. I must have looked like a very young mother, but how proud was in those moments.
However, things started to change for me as I never felt quite wanted. How sad when it was that felt so jealous(嫉妒的) of you.
Before your arrival. Mum was in no hurry to buy the things that I needed. But later I always had to wait and wait for her to pay my school fees or buy books and clothes. Everything was always late! How much more upsetting that my birthday and Christmas presents were only ever things that i urgently needed, such as nightdress and books?
Your situation was different and Mum always made sure that you had the best of everything quickly. When you got a horse for your 6 birthday and started riding lessons, how jealous was!
I slowly turned cold towards you and never gave you the warm hugs that you expected from me or showed an interest in your horse or your medals, I remember your sad face probably wondering why I didn't seem to care about you.
Today I considered that as I woke up. I have never spoken about this, or why that is so. Today I must say that I am very sorry for hurting your feelings it was never your fault(错). You were too young to even realize it. All these years, you might have wondered what you did wrong that didn't often speak with you.
Please forgive me! I want to be a real big sister to you again. If you can forgive me, we can start aver and ‘spend time together. You have turned into a beautiful young woman who I am so proud of. I would love to be close again.
Much love
Helen
