As the taxi leaves, my father stands at the living room window looking out, watching me move off into the darkness, at 4:30 a. m. His grey hair is untidy from sleeping.
Moments ago, he got up to carry my bag for me and went into the cold open air.
He thanked me for a daughter's cooking and for having traveled so far to spend the holiday with him. I told him that I worried he would feel lonely again in the empty house.
“I have my plans, “he said, in the moments before I walked out the door.
When I arrived 10 days ago, I felt it was quiet and lifeless in the house. Then my brothers and I came and filled the rooms. But now, they're gone. I am the last to leave.
As the taxi began to move, I watched the lights go off, but my father didn't leave. Even though he couldn't see me in the dark, he stood by the window watching, beside the tree. It was a fresh tree. He buys one every year for the new year.
The life is hard for my father: my mother died years ago, and now his children are far from home, our selfish choices (选择) taking us from one end of the country to the other. The life of the tree, cut for Christmas, is short. My father's is long and strong. But both of them are all and straight.
I leave behind two trees:one with silver grey hair, the other still freshly green.
