This high school term was supposed to be easier. That is the thought in my mind—after all, this is the first term that I'm taking less than 20 credits(学分 ), and I'm enjoying all of my classes. However, this term has felt the most difficult and my grades are much worse than they were when I was taking two more classes.
I could blame(怪罪) it on the fact that I've been busy working in several school clubs and practicing for a school musical several times a week. Actually, it is important that I don't overlook(忽视) that because it wouldn't be fair to myself to say it doesn't play a part in my low grades. However, it's clearly not the only reason. In fact, study has never been easy for me.
I thought that putting in more effort would change things, but it hasn't. The exam I studied for hours on comes back a failure. I fall asleep while working on homework and forget to hand it in. I sit in class taking lots of notes, and when I look back at them to do my homework, it all reads as gibberish. I start to realize that maybe some of the work I do is just hard.
I'm learning that it's okay not to be the best at the work that you do. When you're used to being naturally good, it's hard to realize that throwing the same amount(数量) of effort at something that is more difficult won't just automatically(自动地) work. However, we shouldn't feel bad about that. Even though we're here for learning, there are so many things to spend our time on. I think of the things I want as all having a price, and the amount that I would like to pay at any given time changes, as does the price. It's not to say that you should stop working hard, but it's good to keep in mind that sometimes the price just might be too high for you at a given time.
You don't have to do everything perfectly, even if it looks easy, and you're allowed to deal with knowledge that just doesn't make sense to you. This is the time to learn how to keep on keeping on. We will be the best of ourselves once we learn that being our best isn't a precondition to learning.
